Today I was on my way to Romans 8 when these words--underlined at some earlier time in red and blue--caught my eye:
"Nothing good dwells in me." (Romans 7:18 NASB)
I read again.
"For I know that nothing good dwells in me."
Yes, as I review my life--even just the past week--I have plenty of empirical evidence. I know that nothing good dwells in me.
I am a constant danger to those I love most.
I am a constant danger to the cause of Christ.
I am a constant danger to the cause of orphan care.
I am a constant danger to everyone and everything I hold most dear. What an irony...what I long to protect, I have the power to destroy. "...evil is present in me." (Romans 7:21 NASB)
I need God.
I need God to hold me back.
I need God to hold me back from harming His name.
I need God to hold me back from harming those I love.
I need God to hold me back from harming the opportunity to do good while I yet breath...
I need God.
I need God to slay Self.
I need God to slay Self and replace Me with Christ, author of all that is good.
I need God.
Oh, God, help me...
